Hey All, It's been a long time, for a lot of reasons I have not been able to continue to blog, mostly due to my reasoning on the blogs. I have been dealing with the Spirit for a long while now, and I believe I'm finally understanding the pattern of my life.
Christ has been tugging on my heart for a very long time, and sometimes I go towards him, and sometimes I run far away. Lately it has been the latter of the two. I have been reading the Gods word regularly for the past six or so months, for answers to my questions about a relationship, and my life and where its heading and so forth, but not really giving my life to God. Its hard to explain so I'm just going to type what comes to my head. I have been going through this break up, that has had me wrapped up in thought everyday since the day it happened, by far the worst break up I have ever gone through. So bad that I told myself that I will never go through another one. (Lord willing) I have been so consumed in this that I have been thinking about Christ, but I haven't been putting him first. This person that I am going through this time with has given me more motivation to become closer to Christ then ever, the thing is she shouldn't be my reasoning. I have been pondering my life for sometime have decided
(With Gods help, and friends) that in order for me to be happy in life I need to place God number one. No a lot of us say that all the time. " God needs to be number one." But how many of us actually live that way? I have recently been studying through Philippians 1, and the very popular verse, Philippians 1:21 "For to ,me, to live is Christ and to die is gain" Has had me thinking in ways I never thought I would ever think. There is so much more to life than how I have been living it. The reason I have been struggling with this verse so much is very easy to understand now. I have not been living my life according to how Paul had put it in this verse, the verse as it pertains to my life says, To live is for ME, to die is LOSS. Take a second and think about that. Trust me I know its not something easy to swallow, but that's how I have been thinking. I HAVE BEEN SO WRONG! There is so much more to our life then to live for ourselves. When Paul wrote this, I believe he was in jail. Paul was going through some rough times, like for real and he not only gave God glory, but he knew why he was placed here on earth. As Christians we are supposed to be living every second of everyday for Christ, yeah that's very hard to do, but not impossible. We are supposed to be reaching out to the non- believers and sharing the good news about Christ with them!! No matter your struggles, not matter what happens, our job is to tell others of Christ. That is our purpose in life. You may say God is calling me to be a Doctor, or a Police Officer, or maybe even Porter John Cleaner, which may be the case, but why would he call you to a certain occupation? Just take a look at where your at now, and where you think God is calling you to be. A friend of mine explained to me the other night that where you are now, and where your going to be is just the vessel in which Christ is going to use you. How AWESOME is that?! Helping spread the word is what its all about! Think of it this way, as a Christian, the bad stuff you go through in life, remember that this world we live in will be the only hell we as believers will ever know!! But for all the other non- believers this world will be the only heaven they'll ever know... Yeah tough stuff, but its the truth. In order to be happy you have to live a God centered holy life, don't try the other way around. Trust me it won't work. I have more hope for the problem area I'm in now after coming to these conclusions. I hope everyone who reads this benefits from this. I am praying for y'all, please do the same for me, and remember Live out loud for Christ!
